Excuse the previous post. I was really raging with anger at that point.
Hmm. Damn alot of drama has been happening throughout the whole week. First, the school messed up our subjects. This means I've been doing a subject that doesn't even exist for the whole year! Until now I'm still really unhappy about it but then again there's nothing we can do. I even thought of switching to VCE or foundation in trinity (still might actually if i can't cope) but then again i don't want to just give up on IB, well not yet at least. Other than that, I also had some boarding issues which i find really childish and stupid. my friend and i actually got locked outside our new dorm (on purpose) but i shall not talk about it here. oh and there's been some lifeless fag called "gossipteen" that's been adding everyone on msn (well in kilmore at least) and spreading stupid gossip around. students actually brought it up to the principle so there's going to be an assembly tomorrow about it. who knew a small place like kilmore could have so much drama. pffft. oh and i still have no idea what subjects to take. : i am so lost. hmm. the year's coming to an end and we'll be seniors soon. this year actually flew by pretty quick. anyway, things have cooled down and i'm feeling alot better now :) though i'm still very deprived of sleep. not to mention workload is piling up again and i got back from school past 8:30pm today. fml!
oh ya i just remembered something funny that happened the other day. haha i went for music class at 7:30 in the morning so my teacher asked me if i wanted some breakfast. then i asked what've you got? and she was like i have some fruits if you want. then i asked what fruits she had and she casually said "oh, i have 2 apples here and a banana if you want" and then took them out from her bag and placed them in such a way that the banana was inbetween the 2 apples. i don't know if its just me who finds it funny or what but i couldn't help but burst out laughing abruptly at that. hahahahahha!
anyway, hope you guys are preparing well for spm. 2 more weeks to go! whee can't wait for december ;D
I cannot express in words how much I DETEST "YOU"
Because of "you", I...
am about to screw my whole future up because of some "irresponsible" people
might be doing an extra year here (lets hope i make it through) cus of bloody morons like "you"
totally wrecked my social life
had the worst weekend in my 17 years of life
am forced to deal with nonsensical, childish things that I honestly don't give a shit about
there're many more reasons but i obviously won't list them out here.
now when i really think about it, coming here is the BIGGEST mistake i've made in my life. i have never ever regretted for things i've done but this is really the one.
today, i have learned that...
no one in this world is going to understand or feel any stress, sadness or anger that you're going through if they are not in your position.
everyone is selfish and no one is going to give a damn whether you are facing problems because everyone has their own problems to deal with and everyone wants the best for themselves
no one is going to be there for you or help you solve your problem or listen to you rants cus like it or not, at the end of the day its not their problem your life's screwed up.
no one is going to be kind to you or feel sorry for you when you feel like your world is torn apart
crying is not going to make anything better, it doesn't solve the problem so stop whining about it and suck it up
at the end of the day, you are going to be alone in this harsh, cruel world, and no one is going to be there for you. you're stuck in it alone. life's a game, where the strongest and toughest one wins. i guess its time to tell myself to grow up and accept the fact that i'm finally facing reality. i used to have my head stuck up in the clouds all the time, well not anymore. sometimes i feel like i've changed into a completely different person cus i've seen the way people do things, i know how its like to be betrayed and i know how the world works. people are going to use you and do whatever it takes to satisfy their themselves whether you like it or not, you're in it alone so people who are childish and weak are not going to be able to make it through life.
you may think i'm being dramatic and emotional and crap, but trust me, try living my life a day and see how'd you feel.
when life gives you shit, deal with it.
-gossipgirl. ahha.
this whole week has been passing by extremely slow for some odd reason. agh. 56 more days till i get home :( i have a very strong urge to go back right now. after i graduate from this place i swear to god i am never ever coming back here ever again! what a horrific place to live in. gawd. i feel so pmsy right now. i hate this school. hate hate hate hate kilmore. dieeeee you stupid thing dieeee! ughh. i wished the bush fire had burn down the whole place. asdfghjkl;' i should have listen to the random guy on some forum saying that he wasted 2 years of his life here. damn. come to aussie people!
met up with jou and ollie on sunday. haha. it was nice seeing familiar faces again! :D it was good catching up and all. we went to watch couples retreat. haha. i would post up pictures but they're in jou's cam. the movie was funny at some parts but abit sohai. omg stupid ticket so con money. 15 bucks! *heartache* i am trying to control my spending limit. i shall restrain myself to 50 bucks (excluding phone credit, internet credit) every month. don't know if that's going to work but i'll try. haha see how long i can last. i want to go back lahhhhhhh! grrhh!!! actually i wouldn't mind living here for abit but just not in kilmore. you should see scotch college (michael's school) its probably as big as the whole kilmore. i wish i could pay to get out of kilmore and become a guy so i can study there. ahhaha.
i apologize for the boring update. nothing seems to be happening. zzzzzzzzzzzz. econs test tmrw. bohoo. speaking of which, hopefully you guys are studying back home haha. oh and you know what i hate about my toilet? its the fact that 3 people can actually be in the same toilet, one person showering, another person taking a shit and the other one brushing teeth ALL AT THE SAME TIME. there are cubicles for the toilet and shower of course. and it actually happened just now. lol. i couldnt even look in the mirror as it was covered with foam from the shower. plus the smell coming out from the toilet mixed together with foam.. GROSS!!!
anyways i wanna sleep now. supa tired. buh bye
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Today's the last day of my holiday. :( I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO KILMORE! UGH. ASDFGHJKL;' sorry lol. Mum's going back later at 10 (which she just realised this morning. god!) and tomorrow's day light saving, which means the time difference'll be back to 3 hours. Went to the Tulip festival today. I think 90% of the people there were asians and indian people. lol! Some spring pictures here to match the mood. haha.
mum: WAH JOSAPIN YOU SEE THE COLOUR SO VIBRANT!
me and vanessa. she's freaking tall for a 14 year old and i think i put on a shitload of weight. lol
